Sometimes when I see your face I wonder.
The musings of a man who made too many decisions based
on what he felt incapable of doing.
I do not pretend that it should have or even could
have been me.
But I wonder.
And then I stop wondering. I see your joy.
Really see it, unfiltered by the lingering nostalgia that
always threatens to break through where you are concerned.
Truthfully, when decisions were made, long ago, I
thought I might be bitter.
Bitter at the circumstances. Bitter at myself for not
making more of an attempt.
I am not bitter.
There is only warmth in the spots you occupy in my
mind. The comfort of unwavering love and friendship.
For these I am grateful. For what you have been given,
for what you have given, for what you have received, I am joyful. Parts of me
remain in awe of you.
But sometimes when I see you, I wonder.
If only for the briefest of moments.
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